sad + angry

today

I feel so disappointed

few of my friends around me

are betraying me

they spot me

but luckily

I am still the winner by now

I am very angry

I never knew that they will do that to me

I am the one who trust them too much

but actually I am not their friends

I work for you guys

I try my only best to help

but the way you guys treat me

I am really disappointed

you guys will receive the kamal

you guys will and I will wait for it

me..

me

recently sleep not well

every night wake up a lot of times

having nightmares

or even some nonsense dreams

what happen to me

having headache

doing stupid things

and missing you

I just want the thing that I feel that I want

I only follow my feelings

do you get it?

I hope you really get it

I miss you a lot

last night when I woke up

I was fully disappointed

you know why?

I think you know that feel

and I hope you know about it

what am I doing?

I really don't know

I hope 

my life get easier and easier

but not harder and harder

I Pray

I close my eyes and pray

friends..?

what are friends...??

are friends only be there if he or she needs you

or just only they have the fun with you

but when you are having troubles they leave you alone?

dear friends..

do you guys remember?

during form 3

when we had to face our PMR

I still try my best to help you guys celebrate birthdays

pictures above...

she is one of my best friends

you had changed

you had really changed

now

you are like this

do you remember

I woke up at 3.00am to cook spaghetti for you as a birthday present?

guys..

do you guys still care about me?

your birthday

her birthday

she birthday

whoever birthday

I did everything nicely for you guys..

what about me?

do you guys still remember me?

I'm so sad..

do you guys know?

I'm sad and disappointed on you all....

我是怎么了？

我到底是怎么了

不懂为什么

火气超级大

也不懂为什么

就是很不开心

我是怎么了

我好累

简直就想离开这个家

可是

如果我这么做

我在家就会变得没地位

现在已经没地位了

我真的好厌烦

我好厌恶

这种感觉

简直就像活在地狱一样

好累，好疲惫

你，

还是那样不懂我的心

可是

也不能怪你

因为甚至有时候，

我都不了解我自己在想什么

我到底在干什么？

今天领了一些考卷

我的分数红到不能再红

我到底在干嘛

我就想失去了方向

失去了自我

我，

到底怎么了。。？

tonight..

its a very bored night

because

we can only chat through phone

by the phone

just by the phone

sigh

I feel so disappointed

and also sad too

cause tonight is the night we promised before

lol

I dont know what am I saying

I dont know should laugh or cry

smile or sad

I might not be able to stay happy always

but I will try to do so

I always do

may be cause of the reason that we never met

I got very sad and disappointed

lol

what am I saying??

I really dont know what am I doing

I dont know what am I typing

lol

thats all

S.A.D

last night

we had a bbq party with your friends

before the bbq party

you promised something and you will do it right after the party

but

after the party

you just forgot all about it

I was so sad

I was damn disappointed

I hate that

I asked you two times the same question to make sure your decision

yea

you really forgot about it

I was really disappointed in you

when I reach home

I think all of what other people told me

then 

I decided to broke up with you

but

I cant make it

I really cant make it

my heart so pain

because you never try to safe our relationship

you were only blamming yourself

all over the way

I was sad

I was hurt

but i couldnt make it

may be I was just angry

but I really dont mean it

I am sorry about it

cause I found that

my heart already belongs to you

no matter how and why

I still couldnt live without you by now

thanks and sorry for every thing that I did

I will never ever try to leave you again

16/3/11

say hi to 16th of March

this morning

I woke up at around 0715am

as I slept around 2 last night

last night was a celebration for my brother's birthday

and we had a bbq celebration

whole of my body was damn oily

and I can smelt the smell of bbq even I finish my bath

LOL

this morning

I woke up so early

is to join a project

that is "visiting to meteorologi centre"

however

there was bored

because

I don't even know what are they talking about

except TSUNAMI

yea..

its TSUNAMI!!!

that happened few days ago at Japan

poor people

may GOD bless you all

after visiting I was damn tired and also hungry

LOL

but

we had fun there actually

am I going out tonight??

hope so...

I don't really wanna stay at home

reason??

as long as you come stay with me then you'll get it

I just wanna say that

I miss you...

miss you badly

but

seems like you are so busy

then 

never mind

its ok

I forgive whatever you do to me

just

sometimes

can you please think of me??

hope that can meet you tonight

really hope so..

say HI to my new blog

a very new me

to start a new blog

what cause me to start a new blog

its just because I have forgotten my previous account's password

I know that its sweat

but thats me

say HI again to everyone 

and hope that

I wont forget this password and will keep on updating

LOL

anyway

gonna say HI HI HI ^^